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Heavens Strings

Time often seems so fleeting that I wonder if I have even taken a breathe let alone seen 4 weeks go by. Yet in these rare and quiet moments I can remember all those little things that have been successes or failures, the lessons as well as the motivators.

I attended a ride out to escort a young boy who was graduating. There were 18 Bikers all together for a cause. This youngster had lost his mom and his dad was trying to make the day a little more special. It was an amazing yet emotional adventure. Riding behind his car I thought of my Intellectual Thunderstorm and how he would not have this graduation event in his life. I felt honored to be able to share this moment, a mom with a son who would not graduate at the graduation of a son who’s mom was unable to be there. 

Yet even though that is the case, I know I am extremely blessed to have him still in my life.  Even though he suffers struggles and fears, I get to see him overcome and succeed.

Over the last few months I have witnessed the heartbreaking struggle of an acquaintance who lost her precious child, only 9 Years old.   Life is full of moments that put our struggles into perspective. Help us see the silver lining s in our storms.

Its those small silver linings that shine the tendrils of light into those dark days, the strings from above that we can grasp onto and hold tight till the sun peers through and our strength is rewarded.

Sun Rays

found at http://imgfave.com/view/3719038?r=pin and jmbrns.tumblr.com

 

 

 

‘Knock outs’ and ‘Come backs’

Can’t believe we are 14 days into the new year already. It seemed set to start off as a brilliant one. Our Intellectual Thunderstorm acquired another Volunteer position at a Specialist Vet clinic and was doing great, full week. We felt sure this was the turnaround point. We read about how a school, just like what we wanting to open, has opened its doors this Jan in another province. Contacts have been made. Our efforts in finding land to start our school haven’t been going so well but with all the other pluses we were on great footing anyway.

Then today the message came through, “Sorry to have to say but due to some issues we will no longer be requiring his help”

My heart hit the floor faster than a toddler’s breakfast porridge and felt about the same. I just sat, holding back tears and thinking…. “where to now?”

Needless to say I had to go fetch him, he is naturally devastated and emotionally punishing himself, words I hate hearing flying out of his mouth. Self-damaging talk. The emotional damage and self-esteem will take time to heal, we will move forward slowly and learn from this experience. There is no better teacher than life, if we choose to learn from its lessons.

I have calmly asked what the issues were so we can address them and he can learn. Turns out it wasn’t his lack of ability in work, but rather his inability to understand the social norms and etiquette required in social interactions. This has caused the problem. Management feel he does not fit in.

We have learnt already in this life how not everyone has the ability to understand his differences and not every environment is suited to them either. We will return to the drawing board and regroup. He has a way to go and much to learn. Maybe this new school is a new door opening, if all pans out and jobs can be found that side…who knows.

My feelings at the moment are a mix of heartbroken mother and unyielding optimist. I will take a moment… and allow him his. Then we will get back to work. Opportunities knock on the doors of those who are ready to answer.

Ready, set and I hope its a Go!

Well its a start. Emails sent, appointments made and docs downloaded. I’m feeling daunted and excited at the same time. Feel like I am walking on a wall, one side is failure and the other success. I am trying to keep my eyes on the success side. Got a response from a prominent person I emailed, can’t decide if it was a good mail or a bad one.  On one hand I am absolutely amazed that they responded…and so quickly to boot, took all of 12 hrs, I didn’t even really think I would get a response… so miracle number 1. On the other hand though they didn’t sound too hopeful that this will kick off. They have tried on another side of things and the red tape is apparently miles long and keeps changing.

I am determined though, my heart says its right and my brain is saying failure is not an option. Change is made by those who are crazy enough to try and keep trying. Page one has started so let’s see where this books story goes……

Motivation

When Determination causes pain

Determination in itself is a great attribute to posses, it enables us to move forward with conviction towards a goal. To persevere through trials and to keep our heads above water, but when that determination is aimed in the wrong direction it can have devastating results.

Last night, once again, we were woken up by squealing and fighting hamsters. Our two DO NOT get along! When we got them we envisioned the two of them living peacefully and cuddling together, we did not however count on getting two strong willed and determined little miscreants. They are pleasant and docile towards us but put them together and all hell breaks lose. We separated them in the cage by means of a vertical mesh, but alas, they made a way by day 2 of getting at each other. So we decided to do an upstairs and downstairs conversion to the cage. Again without success. Their determination to have each others space and food led them to find, by any means, the smallest of spaces to crawl through, leaving in their wake bruises, scrapes and bleeding wounds and us sleep deprived. They are now in separate cages all together.

They have an excuse though, they are animals. Us humans however have been gifted with the ability to discern and comprehend the emotional consequences of our actions. We have the intellectual ability when we so choose, to process the possible impact of our actions before we take them….do we though?

In society today it has become evident that for the most part, we have lost our humanity. Peoples determination has been aimed at self gratification, materialism and the pursuit of glory. The determination to fill our days chasing success in work and play has led people to speedily disobey road laws, driving up the wrong side of the road, jumping red traffic lights and stop streets and causing collisions. Their determination to be first leaving in its wake financial strain and even death.

The determination of others to climb the corporate ladder, regardless of who they have walked on to get to the next step. They leave behind the emotional strain of neglected family and embittered co-workers. Some have a determination to have it all, the big house, fancy cars and more stuff than they know what to do with, neglecting to see the needs of those around them.

Those others who have a determination to see change, to help and care as a community, the way it should be. They are often regarded as troublemakers, outcasts and rebellious because they do not subscribe to society as it is.

I fear for what will become of this world, what our children’s children will suffer at the hands of this so called society if the focus is not soon changed from self gratification and material gain to self worth and the needs of the greater community.

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